2013 has been pretty craptastic thus far, but I'm determined to get out of this funk. The sun is going to shine again and God will deliver me. I know it. 

I spent about 4 months getting my head shaved because I looked so fabulous. Then I decided to spend this year growing it out. This is where I was as of the end of February. 

I know I look like a total nutter but I don't care. As far as my throat goes, I had surgery and my throat is healed after having speech therapy and everything else. I hope that in a month or two I'll be ready to start performing again! 

Oh, and Love Gun will be a year old in two weeks!

Seems like only yesterday we brought the little bugger home and now she's almost grown! Sniffle. The jerk. 

Anyway, I'm also looking into moving to California by the end of the year. I need to move out of this house and after visiting there last year I feel like I'll feel more at home there.

Welp. That's about it. Nothing much more to report. 

End Of Summer

So, have we established that I am crap at keeping up a blog? My sissy is way better at this than me. Maybe it's just because whenever I go to write, I'm afraid people don't care, so I don't put myself out there. But it doesn't stop me on any other social networking sites, so why this one? 

Anyway, the point of this blog is to sort of play catch up for the handful of you who are hopefully still here!

So, let's see. Love Gun is growing like a weed that won't quit. She outgrew her first collar after the first week and now she's wearing a harness. It gets cold in the early mornings now so she has to wear that underneath one of her sweaters or a hoodie (Yes, my baby is spoiled, and I don't care who knows it!) 

I spent a majority of the Summer looking for a new job since mine was only scheduling me a day a week. Then they hit me with the real BS. They told me (after five months of being employed there) that I needed to get rid of my mohawk or I wouldn't be allowed to come back to work. So, for the sake of my minimal paychecks, I got rid of the mohawk I'd had for a year. So now I look like this.

And yes, that is a flower etched into my hair there. Here's a better look!

I also got a new job (after all THAT) working at a school for the deaf here on the East Coast. It's been 2 weeks and I'm pretty confident that this school year will teach me loads about myself and about educating children. Still isn't where my passion lies, but it's giving me what I need right now. 

Now, the inspiration behind me writing this post tonight is what has been heavily on my mind for the last few weeks. In May I was diagnosed with vocal nodules (think of it as having callouses on your vocal cords) We tried voice rest and cutting back on singing, but that was an epic fail. It's my own fault, really. I knew there was something wrong with my throat towards the end of last year but instead of getting it looked at then, I ignored it. (Take Note! You know your body! If you think something is up, PLEASE see a doctor!)

I'm having surgery next week to have the nodes removed and after a week of absolute vocal rest (not even allowed to clear my throat) and 1-3 of NO SINGING at all, I'm hoping to be good as new.

But, please, send up your prayers and positive thoughts. I'd really appreciate it.  

I'm a Mommy now!

Brought my new puppy home on Friday evening! Her name is Love Gun (after Cee Lo's song) and she is so tiny and sweet. Even as I type this, she's sleeping in her crate curled up with a towel because her blankie is being washed and dried right now (we had ourselves an accident today. Totally Mommy's fault) She is a Chihuahua, all white with a grey face and a bit of brown under her cheeks. People see how tiny she is and can't believe it! Neither can I. But you don't want description, you want pictures! Here we go!

This one might be my favorite. I was trying to get her into my friend's car and she wasn't having it at all. It's her "Nope. Fuck what you thought" face

OhEmGee I haven't posted since December! I've been so busy with life, and work, and changing jobs, and wrangling babies, and napping, and going to LA and, and, and,

I'm going to get better, I promise. This month has been a bit reflective for me. I'm figuring it all out and who I am now and in relation to life. And...

I'M GETTING A PUPPY!

I'm so excited and nervous! Pictures will be coming, I promise. But for now, I'm sorry I've been so neglectful!

Birds fly away when it becomes too cold for comfort. They spread their wings and follow the warmth. But they always return, and when they do, they're older, stronger and wiser from the journey they've taken. I think I'm overdue for my trip south. 

Suddenly there's this ache in my chest. And I worry if it's you, and if your heart that beats in time with mine is all right. Then I remind myself that no matter if our heartbeats are the same or if somehow they've changed their rhythms, that worrying will do me no good. 

gLee

Just submitted my audition video to  "The Glee Project"


I absolutely love the show glee and my dream is to get to be on it. I auditioned last year and it sucked so bad that I don't even like thinking about it. But today, I was so into it. I did so much better! 


I'm also planning on heading up to New York this weekend so that I can also audition in person for the same opportunity. Wish me luck!